I’m not big on resolutions. I told you that a week ago. A little juggling of my schedule and giving myself permission to breathe and I have caught sight of the “numbers” and “words” people are choosing for the year. Someone’s post I read the other day (Probably Ciao Mom on Just.Be.Enough) made me think about my word of the year.
And here is what I came up with:
I know it sounds selfish, but it’s really not.
I focused on a lot of things last year, but ME was not one of them.
This year I want to focus on ME.
Because focusing on ME means so much to not only myself but my family.
I don’t take time out for me.
I’m okay with the mom ponytail and the frumpy clothes. Slap me in a pair of jeans and a clean t-shirt and I’m ready to go.
And see, this part of me I am okay with.
But, I used to dye my hair (and man do I have A LOT of gray!). I used to put on makeup every day. I used to pamper my hair.
I used to do a lot of things I don’t do anymore.
I give so much of ME to everyone else, it’s time to take ME back.
My family deserves ME but most of all, I deserve me.
After all, I am so much more than a wife, a mother, a daughter…
I am more than a writer, a novelist, a friend…
I am more than my religion and where I am in that world.
I am so much more than what I am now.
It’s time to take ME back.
It’s time to find that woman I used to know that is so much better now then she ever used to be.
Come out, come out, wherever you are!!
If only it were as simple as the word is.
PS. Did you know this is post #499? Yeah. I was shocked when I noticed it myself. Tomorrow I have a very special lady stopping by to help celebrate my 500th post. Woot! Woot!!