What gives you that “be enough” feeling?
I had to think about this. For a long time I lived in a blah existence functioning on the repeat cycle on a daily basis. It was the same day in and day out. Awake, blink, bed. I never took time to focus on me.
I probably still don’t take time to focus on me, mostly because my kids don’t allow it. I’ve learned to improvise though.
I see small glimpses of being enough during the day, but its at night when the house is quiet that I really get to soak it in.
Today, I am enough. I smile that my house isn’t spotless, but it’s clean enough not to embarrass me. My children survived the day without killing each other or I them. I’ve written a story or two. I’ve extended that friendly nature to a neighbor and we had a good time. I said something nice to myself in the mirror this morning.
It was a good day.
But what really gives me that “be enough” feeling?
My husband does. His love is fathomless, and in the very instant I question, his voice is right there on the other side of the phone making me feel like the queen of the universe.
“Hey, baby, what are you doing?” or “How’s your day going?”
He’s great with the small talk that says so much while saying nothing at all. And he always ends with an “I love you.”
He just accepts me exactly as I am, imperfections and all.
And if I am enough for him?
I must be enough for me, too.
And that is a wonderful feeling.