To Be or Not To Be Enough…Mom

There were a lot of victories this week in the Drama Mama household. These victories made me think about my job as a mother. It made me question myself.

I know that sounds weird, it’s honest.

I had to think REALLY hard to give myself some credit for these accomplishments, because really, they aren’t about me  anyway.

They are all on Jellybean.

And they are fantastic.

I’m still amazed.

We got her report card. She has one A (in math, no less!) and the rest were Bs. Amazing, especially since she was getting F’s in some areas over the course of the semesters.

She handed me a folded piece of paper as she went to bed Friday night.

I opened it and…..

TADA!!!

It was an HONOR ROLL Achievement award.

TADA!!!!

IN YOUR FACE, ADHD!!

Huge accomplishment for her. HUGE.

And yesterday, she got baptized. She didn’t even tell me that she had given her life to Christ until we discussed baptism.

I am definitely a proud mom over here.

But then, I started thinking. What did I really do as a mother to get us these victories? I mean outside of taking her to church and making her go to school.

And like I mentioned earlier, I had to think hard. I just do what I do, I don’t really give it much thought. Ultimately these are not my victories, these are HERS.

But I am her mother. I stand proud of her once more, knowing that even if it’s not mine, I had a hand in it somewhere.

I must be doing something right, eh?

And I’ll take it. I’ll take that pride in her accomplishments and let it envelope me and remind me that yes, I am enough mom, even if I don’t always feel that way.

Especially since I doubt myself too much.

Today, I can tell you, I am enough.

What gives you that “be enough” feeling?

BSOW: A Little Blue In My Corner

 

I am SOO excited to introduce you to today’s Best Scoop of the Week. In fact, I am SO excited, I gave her the WHOLE BOWL of ice cream. Yep. The whole bowl. I sure hope she likes neopolitan!!

I can tell you one thing I know she likes (actually I could tell you more than one) and that’s writing about Kimmy and David. When you stop by her place, make sure to take some vacation and dive into Kimmy’s world. You won’t regret it.

I can tell you she loves cupcakes. I mean she really really loves cupcakes. And shoes.

Did I mention she writes? Incredibly. In fact, I met her through a mutual writing group we participate in, Write on Edge (formerly called The Red Dress Club). She has this beautiful way of putting words together that make you feel and see and smell exactly what her characters do. She’s got great advice on the art of writing too, from her own struggles and experiences in doing it, and she writes it in such a way that it will just dazzle you. She makes it look SO easy!!!

And when she writes about her boys? Oh, I promise you, it will tug on your heart strings, make you smile. It will evict some emotion from you whether its bittersweet, sappy, funny, or sad. She will work her way right into your heart, just like she has mine.

And just when you really start to believe that she is an angel here on earth (Because she will make you feel 10 ft tall and bulletproof!), she’ll prove how humble she really is, how she has those days too,  and endear herself to you even more with a simple request: Remind Me.

She’s been published on Studio 30. She’s been syndicated by BlogHer. She’s one of the editors for Just.Be.Enough. She shares Proud Mommy Moments from around the web. She’ll make you feel like a rock star each time she comments on your page.She’s fun, she’s sassy, she’s a ray of sunshine that will brighten even the darkest day.

You know that one girl you knew in school that just everyone liked–the jocks, the jerks, the nerds, the brains, etc? Yeah, this is her.

I am so so so so excited (did I say so?) to introduce you to Kirsten, who writes in a little corner of the web she calls The Kir Corner.

I asked Kirsten if she were a crayon what color would she be, and she said:

If I were a crayon what color would I be….

Questions like this normally take me a long time to answer, because I just can’t decide. I love Yellow and Hot Pink.  I think that my heart if it were a color would be Yellow and my soul if it were a color would be HOT PINK. Yellow because it’s sunny and welcoming, warm and optimistic. Hot Pink for my soul because it’s girly and feminine but it SHOUTS, it “lives out loud” but it doesn’t push you away, instead it’s the kind of Pink that draws you in and offers you a comfortable chair and a Peach Bellini.

SO those colors live inside of me for sure, but I think when it comes down to it…If I were a crayon and a color I’d be one of the preschool crayons…big and round and easy to hold in your fingers…and I’d be a steel,  Carolina or Cerulean  BLUE. 

Those blues that remind you of summertime, wrap around porches, sprinkles on cupcakes and balloons against the sky. Blues that look so pretty next to yellow and Hot Pink and compliment rather than overshadow them. Blue is deep and thoughtful, blue is warm and inviting, blue is comforting. That is the way I see myself most days..as a compliment to other people, as a warm thoughtful and comfortable place for others.

And I know you have already started to fall for her. It’s so very easy to do. You can stalk her on Twitter and Facebook too. Have you seen her Pinterest boards? Ah-may-zing!! You can get her via Feedburner and Google + too!!!

What are you waiting for? Take a break in The Kir Corner. You won’t regret it.

Have a wonderful weekend!!